It has been a long road to get where I am at today. For over 5 years now I have been a self-employed music studio owner. There have been countless times that I have felt like giving up. There were many mistakes, obstacles and forces I had to work through to get here. It was hard, it was tedious. I had to change my habits along the way.
I almost quit going to music school my sophomore year to become a cosmetologist.
I didn’t feel like I practiced enough, performed enough, or understood enough. It was a huge shock being in an environment of such talented and committed people. Upon reflection, I am not sure I was at the right school for how I visualized my career but I made it work. Luckily, I had a couple of teachers who believed in me and supported me.
I have always been a dreamer. I knew deep inside me everything I truly want is possible.
Even as a child I would sit in my room and daydream. I knew very early on that I wanted to be a performer and a teacher even before I started taking formal music lessons. I realize I’m lucky that I knew so early on. Throughout the years I’ve remained focused on the bigger picture and what that means to me. This focus took years of developing a self-care lifestyle that includes therapy, yoga, exercise, baths, and tons of self-help books. It wasn’t easy. It took small changes over a length of time to gain results.
Taking the initiative to focus on myself first gave me balance in my life.
Choosing who or what energy I allow or surround myself with keeps me in check. I still experience days where I feel myself being pulled back into self doubt. I usually take this as a sign I need to slow down and lean on my self-care tactics.
How are you caring for yourself and keeping your dreams in mind?